Traumatize

Feeling that you merely explain to others, by the abstraction only. You can feel the illnesses and continuously finding drugs to pull down the feel. The more you use the drugs, the more the feeling will be compounded. Something like this I am feeling today and also this parasite will penetrate your memories and start to emanate the negative thoughts with rigid hypothetical points into your memories.

And as you know your mind it just starts to magnify at international Level and Poor me gave the benefit of doubt, again and again, making it stronger than before. I am not aware of till one of kind of best friend asked me “How?” and I went into enlightenment mode and thanks to her, now I can see comprehensive parts of it. Sometimes Big spiritual practice can’t help with atomic problems you just have to go back into your own thought-time process.